I breathe and I observe. “I” be-ing the key exploration. No more do-ing for me, she says…but it happens…do-ing gets in there and then you wonder how that happened?! Wondering is a do-ing thang too. Oy! That too, huh?!
Okay let’s start again…breathe…observe….wow, this goes on forever. That’s the point…forever…but go more deeply into that…feel it…let the feel take you on the journey…let the mind take a break…long deserved as well.
It is endless where the mind will take us and it’s challenging to truly let the mind have its proper space while the higher self is the present grace. Round and round we go and glimpses do appear. But do we remember how we came to a glimpse? Quietly, the essence embraces all…not quite like anything else but it is there over and over and over. Will I simply remember to allow…accept…embrace this knowing as the portal to my infinity? Do I dare?
It can be a precarious sail. The vessel tips often and then the mind gently prompts it to even keel. Over here, buddy, this is the way you want to sail. Uh oh, how are you going to manage that wave, that emotional surf…coming right at you?! Boom! You’re in it now. Hold steady…listen…here comes the prompt from within….”over here, steer this way…you can do it”. Aaaaaaah, caught myself starting to drift…back into the muck…of my own making. What’s up with that? I came out here to sail free or at least in divinity…duh uh, you are always that! So what’s going on?
It’s the “pointers” as Tolle would say. The mind creates pointers so we can see the way…way within that is. Mind knows all the trappings and all the openings but you have to be courageous…watch what you ask for!
It takes a whole lot of trust in “nothingness”. But something has driven us down this path for eons. One of these eons we are going to get it…ourselves that is…the eternal quest “Who Am I”?
Be-ing… a sensual reminder to simply hug yourself at this very moment and know you are all you need or ever have to be. It seems so simple but the maya keeps us very intrigued and preoccupied with THOUGHT…the never ending cycle of delusion, illusion and certainly sidestepping of the realness…realness as in NOW…nothing more, nothing less. Yet such a challenging affair with one’s self. No looking out, no looking to anyone…sometimes no looking at all. In, In, In weeee go where the wheel ends we never know…nor do we want to or the adventure is over and back in the cyclic wheel we go….only to search for it again…next time. And how many “next times” are we going to choose? As many as we wish…no judgement but scenarios that are all too familiar and we spin endlessly until we truly embrace we are going nowhere. So what is nowhere? Does it really matter? To the mind that seeks definition…yes! To the mind that doesn’t seek…nowhere becomes the prize. Back to be-ing…a surrender, not knowing and a gentle loving embrace knowing you are all you ever need to be…forever. What a koan, eh?!
The barrage of mental flogging is becoming more visible and obvious to me. From youth I have observed that there were layers between “me” and “truth”. I thought I was hidden from the “ordinary reality” but it has shown itself to be quite the opposite…ordinary reality was hidden from me.
How many times did I cry out for “something more” for something authentic to show itself?! I looked to anyone beside me hoping and sometimes desperately seeking some shared acknowledgement that surely I wasn’t the only one seeing the deception all around and entanglement inside of us?! I began to look for crumbs on the ground, a sign, a message that would direct me to what I needed in bringing this truth forth and finding others that were choosing the same thing. Then the delusion revealed that there were so many levels to this unfolding, so many self deceptions set in our way, so many layers between me and truth.
And who was me anyway? And what was truth anyway? Wow, the barrage all around me, the manipulated boxes put into new arrangements to temporarily appease the fake soul of be-ing creative. Deluge after deluge. Just as I would gain another breath, a real moment of authenticity the next big wave splashed into my face, I choked on the water, submerged by the weight and frightened by the instability and the image that I may lose myself in trying to swim for my freedom. How do I get back to shore…the shore-ness of fatal return.
Blahhhhh! Isn’t this everyone’s story? Of course it is because we have been enslaved, engraved, signed, sealed and delivered together. Blahhhhhhh!
No wonder turning towards our higher selves is such an ordeal! Our minds are so overstimulated with patterns of no return. It truly takes a lot of courage and inner reflection to recognize how much is not who we are and then on to how much is who we are.
Take your power and your love and let go.
I awaken and experience my light body slipping into the form of Archangel Blue. I know I have re-entered the skin that walks upon the earth. My self perception is the higher self, once again, has recommitted, and renewed the agreement to be here.
It’s a slick, elegant light form that devotedly materializes into this form as a dance of the highest technique. I, we, engage and greet the new day. Together we are reminded of our roots, our starseeded self and the experience of softly knowing and embracing the first moments of the day.
I am here now fully engaged. I view from a source of oneness. Somehow and thankfully so the torment and suffering is at abay…enough so for me to “observe”, get my coordinates once again and experience meaning of my own presence. I know I am not alone.
There is no later or before. My ego is behaving, chillin and not trying to challenge my soul out of skin. Soul, Archangel Blue, is gaining in light and presence. Blue embraces ego and recognizes that it has served its purpose but is no longer needed in the forefront. However the teaching gained from ego will remain honored forever. We designed this silly act but a well thought out plan. Now, after eons…we are beginning to get it! Get the greater picture, feel the self created koan, experience self empowerment through self love yet always remaining on our toes, on watch and savoring the moment.
Time utilization has become most significant in how it is used, not abused, not ignored but lavished in. So many moments of aliveness and unfolding truth. Aaaaaah, we have wasted much of this valuable increment of linearity out of blindness, ignorance and fear. Yet ironically we return to a form, the very one we have bumped heads with only to now honor in the highest and deepest way. Life…go figure…smile!
Archangel Blue, color is present…day before us….checking in with headquarters and getting the notes for discipline of the day.
I see through the eyes of Blue. In this moment nothing matters but greater purpose. In most moments this is the case. Blue now observes and steers this physical vessel this way and that. Our will is in correlation…divine.
It is this greater presence that surrounds me, an orb of self, observer, one in oneness. Solitude, aloneness are requisite to this enlightened ride. Compassion for all is a gift and honor to share. There is a larger call, the universes await our every illumination. The diversity is expansive. We would like to see this continue without interference. Sovereignity is a divine truth. We each, on our own individual path are seeking to remember and embrace this be-earthrite…NOW!
Yet another extraordinary day…many moments of awareness…in fact, it has been days now. The rain assists in the solitude.
Lengthy periods of moments to moments watching very carefully….attracting enlightenment alongside large requests of courage.